Lingering Emotion [Journal Prompt]
Write out some recurring emotions?
An emotion that always comes back no matter the situation. An emotion that you just sit back randomly and think “dang… I’m so and so again”. Having a great day then *boom* now your mood is ruined with angry or sadness. Or find yourself being able to smile when everything around you isn’t so positive.
Take said emotion/feeling - Is it connected to Someone/Something or an event?
the point of this prompt is to not only identify these seemingly random emotions but try to figure out why or how you access them. Sometimes we feel things and simply don’t think about it. Learning this about yourself could help possibly stop you from following the same path of destruction AND/OR be able to spot triggers that lead down happier states of mind.
Are there emotions that you tend to suppress or avoid?
Someone at work bothering you? Rules, policies, laws? The state of the world? Money? Time? Music? Movies? Social Media? Books? Yourself?
What is the main trigger (if you can’t think of the source then think of some minor triggers) that causes you feel that lingering emotion the most?
Is that source (Good or bad/Small or big) bringing those emotions out of you knowingly or unknowingly? Or are you going to said source to access that emotion?
If the source brings out the bad, write out ways to avoid that source. write out a gameplan if possible. That is if you actually want to get away from that source. If not, do you know why?
If it brings out the good, what about it puts a smile on your face? How often are you seeking it out to feel this feeling again? Are you using it as a crutch?
So I’m listening to “Dire, Dire Docks” a song from the Super Mario 64 Soundtrack while I write this post.
It’s a beautifully made song that’s the foundation of my childhood. Not to be dramatic lol. As I write this post about lingering emotions, I get to the part about going to “the source” on my own to feel that particular emotion and it hit me. I for a while didn’t notice that I came back to this song a lot. Originally, I thought it was because it ( and donkey Kong country’s “aquatic ambience”) was so peaceful it cleared my mind for writing productivity. That’s true but I just realized I listened to low-key feel…sadness. Why?
When I listen to those two songs….
…I can smell the room I was in playing those games. Getting up early before the sun came up, not brushing my teeth, grabbing a pop-tart and just playing those games for hours on the weekend.
It was such a peaceful time. No bills, no work and as odd as this is going to sound…No ambitions. Even if I did have some goals or dreams back then I didn’t HAVE to make it work out. I would be a wrestler one week then a game designer the next. It didn’t matter.
My mom told me my only just “job” was to get good grades and take that damn trash out. I was successful. A CEO living on my mom’s dime.
So yeah, I’m not saying I cry listening to these songs, but I do go to these songs for…motivational sadness if that makes sense. A sadness that reminds me that things can be better. I just have to work harder for it.
OH YEAH….007 Goldeneye - “Watch Pause theme” … that slaps hard AF too.
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